Missing Out!

I have only been on bed rest for a week, and it really stinks! It may sound great to most people: watching tv and reading books all day, doing absolutely no housework, and staying in your pj's all day. After a couple of days, it really loses its attractiveness.
It seems like I have been missing out on so much this week. With the weather getting nicer and nicer, all I want to do is take Ava outside and draw with chalk, go on stroller rides, and watch her just explore. Danny did take her out one day when it was especially nice, but I know he is exhausted once he gets home from work. That's another thing too. Danny has been doing awesome picking up my slack, but I feel so guilty. Do I tell him what needs to be done? Which to him probably comes across as me nagging. Or do I keep my mouth shut and wait until he sees what needs to be done? Ok wives, we all know where that option gets us- nothing, I think the male species is blind to dirty dishes and empty sock drawers.
Another thing I am totally bummed about is my missed mom's night out. This was going to be the first year I was going to the Hearts at Home conference in Bloomington with my friend Julie. We had it all planned out and all of our classes had been hand picked by us. Of course I couldn't go. You have no idea how much I was looking forward to it. I am definitely going next year! I hope you had fun, Julie! We'll be the first ones in the door for the 2011 conference!
I know I shouldn't complain because all of these things that I'm missing out on will be a small price to pay for the end result that we are hoping and praying for. I guess it's the unknown that I'm so worried about. In the end, will I be doing all of this for nothing?

Break Downs and Bed Rest

We've had a major break down in the house. Me,no, computer yes. Apparently, we got a very yucky virus from Facebook. I blame it on Farmville because Danny is always on it, and I just don't see the entertainment factor. Anyway, instead of paying to get it fixed, which would be more expensive than what it was actually worth, we got a new computer (thanks mom). I'm still getting used to it, so this should be interesting.
As many already know or found out from my previous post, I'm pregnant!!! It seems like I can't do anything the easy way these days. I started bleeding during my 11th week and have continued into my 14th. Turns out my cervix is thinning, so to bed rest I go. :( I went to my first maternal fetal appt. today. The doctor said I am still in "the woods" and wants to see me weekly for an ultrasound. I am just a bundle of nerves and guilt.
I feel so bad because I can't do anything around the house or for Ava anymore. I just lay in bed like a slug. It has been amazing to see all of the great supporters I have. Danny has been awesome. Now he gets up early for work and comes home to cook, clean, and keep Ava entertained. My mom, oh what a savior she's been. She comes to pick Ava up every morning, cooks or orders out dinner for us, and has been going crazy getting things for me to do all day. The latest adventure, Jo Anne's. I'm not very crafty so this should be interesting. My grandma has been such a trooper too. When my mom has to work a couple of days a week, which is usually when I have my days off, she has been watching Ava. She doesn't complain one bit. I do feel really guilty for Ava though. I can't do anything for her, play with her like I used to, or even pick her up. She has had such a good attitude with it. I just hope that if she does end up with a sibling, she isn't jealous. My friend, Julie, has also been a huge help too. I couldn't have done it without all of her encouraging words and prayers. I have to stop and think how much worse things could be and how her family would always find the best in things. Oh what amazing people God has made, and I have the privilege to be surrounded by them.
Enough rambling for now. I will keep everyone posted how things go. Whatever the outcome, we will find the best in whatever God brings our way!

Magnificant Monday!

Such a trooper!

Thought I would change my attitude and be a little bit more positive. I can't believe what a good, little girl I have had lately. When I haven't been feeling so perky, she gives me lots of kisses and plays quietly in her room. She hasn't even been putting up a fight to go to bed either. She even asks to go to bed, just like she did when she was younger. Or when I'm starting to get a little grouchy :), she asks, "do you need a hug?" We still have our occasional tantrums and meltdowns, but not nearly as many as before. She has helped me so much through this stressful time.
Just tonight we were dancing in her room, she took my hand and said, "mom, you're my best friend." How could you be anything but be in a good mood after that?! I have been blessed with such an amazing, spirited, and caring girl.
"You're my best friend too, tootsie"!

Still Stressing!

If anyone knows me at all, you know that I despise change. I'm the person who gets the same thing at my favorite restaurant, gets ready in the same order every morning, and has to make sure my towels are folded the same way every time. I am a creature of consistency. Lately my struggle to push away change has been pushing against me, and I am losing horribly.
Our house is officially on the market. I am excited to move, but sad at the same time. Won't I miss our first house as a married couple or the walls that I gazed at as I was nursing Ava every hour every night for the first month? Also, the stress of keeping the house clean and put together all of the time just in case there is a showing while I'm at work. I don't know how people manage to sell there homes and keep it neat and tidy while still "living" in it.
Then, what if our house doesn't sell?! Oh, I am just at a cross roads. I need to just give into the change and go with the flow just like I do in my work life, but I've got to have control over something! HELP!

Fun City!

Over the weekend, my family took the little kids to Fun City in Burlington. It was a lot of fun! The water was a little too cold for me, but the kids didn't seem to notice one bit. Poor Ava's lips were blue and her whole body was shaking from head to toe, but she didn't want to get out. She didn't even get out to eat lunch, just an icee for her! When we left, we stopped for an early dinner and some birthday cake (someone will be turning 27 soon :) ). Before we even got out of Burlington, Ava was sound asleep. This was a really nice break from all of the snow and cold weather. I think we will be definitely doing this again.

just an update

Things have really been slow around here lately, which isn't always a bad thing. We've looked at a couple of houses, but nothing has struck us yet. I'm hoping more houses go on sale once spring comes along.
This weekend a bunch of my family is going to Fun City with all the little kids. I've never been there, but I'm sure the little ones will have a lot of fun. The only thing that I'm dreading is getting into a swimming suit! I haven't been in one for at least two years. I tried some on in the store the other day and wow is all I can say. Maybe I'll just buy a wet suit:)