Last Friday I got my cerclage out. After that I had to be monitored for an hour. The doctor didn't like some of the decels. she was having, so off we went for another sono. At the sono, BGM was breathing very shallow, had a very low heart rate, and took 20minutes to move. So off I went to be admitted to labor and delivery. Wouldn't you know that she looked fine at the sono there. Oh, my girls will be the death of me someday.
Today I had another appointment. My doc decided that if our little girl has not made her grand entrance by the 18th, we will be inducing. It seems like such a long way away, but it's only a week and a half from now!!! Wow, I can't believe it. I have been feeling really guilty lately. I know this is going to sound crazy, but I feel bad that Ava's life will never be the same again. She only has a week and a half left of being the only one getting attention. After that, she will have to share, and I just feel so bad for her. I hope other parents feel the same way. I am going to make a point to have just mom and Ava days. I just hope I don't traumatize her from all of this. I know everyone is laughing at me right now because siblings are the norm, but I just feel awful.
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About Me
- Bethany
- I am a busy working mom and wife. At work, I spend my day caring for critically ill children. I am a mother of three. My first daughter, Ava, is one of God's greatest gifts to me. My second daughter, Gracie, was born sleeping at 16 weeks. I think about her everyday, and will see her again someday. Our third daughter, Emi, is our little miracle who had to beet the odds. I just stare at her in amazement everyday. At home, I spend my day chasing after my forever energized toddler and trying to keep our house "somewhat" in order.
You are giving her an amazing gift! She is going to have a sister....a friend forever! Don't feel guilty....at first it may be rough getting adjusted....but soon you will watch a friendship in the making. So much fun to come!!
ReplyDeleteI felt the same way at the end of my pregnancy with Lucy and for the first few weeks after she came home. Lucas really grew up after she was born and I felt bad for him and also for myself that I had lost my little, snuggly baby boy. But, once I saw the love he had for her and the way he accepted her it made it all better and I realized that a sibling is a wonderful gift; the best gift. Ava will absolutely love her little sis. She will be a great little mommy helper. Don't worry, your feelings are normal and they will pass :) Keep me updated. I've been wondering how you were since I've been off work the last 2 weeks.
ReplyDeleteTara